My birthday wish

I sometimes wish I was incapable of loving, as horrible as that sounds. Because if I could never love, then I would never have to un-love. Unloving is something I find completely impossible and so much worse than never loving at all. So all of those people that said it was better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all were a bunch of cockeyed liars. I wish, for my birthday, to have an undo button for love.